with quite a few things at the moment, like at first, being in university 2 hours a week this term looked quite appealing but it’s dreadful. i’ve lost every bit of motivation i had to do work. i suck at checking my e-mails too (though i never really seem to miss anything important), another thing is, is that everyone seems so fucking boring man? is it me? am i the one that’s the boring one… surely not. i still want that breath of fresh air, that new change of scenery for a little while…

one thing that’s pissed me off actually is the fact that we have this workshop tomorrow from 9 till 4, and there’s been sweet F-all notice about it, where to go, what to do. the communication is shit man. does my head in. this week i’m on my reading week, i have more on than usual according to uni, so therefore it’s not really my reading week is it? haha, give me strength to get through this year…

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composing wonderful musical playlists, to take my mind off other things, for the time being. i do really enjoy making playlists too, no word of a lie. i think my musical taste is somewhat of high culture (chatting shit), nah but really, it’s good. one thing though, i wish i had nabbed my dad’s Bose headphones and brought them back with me, cos i could do with a decent pair of headphones right now, i would kindly like to get lost within the musical wilderness. oh and by the way, when i say nabbed, i do not mean steal, i simply mean borrow. he would have probably said yes too, ah well. atleast typing this took some more time out of my empty evening. peace X

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recently everything’s been stressful, sorting out next year’s pad, going to and from the bloody doc’s, e-mailling tonnes of people and tutors, texting bare heads to sort out meetings and arrangements, getting my boff chopped, sorting my car out and NOW THIS FUCKING SNOW, wish it would do one, already had some nasty experience coming over from hudd this afternoon and coming home from town when the roads hadn’t been gritted with my parents also in the car going mental whilst my car wasn’t gripping and going out of control. OH AND MY BRAKES SEIZING UP, yeah mint, i think i’ve fucked my splitter too. fucking great. i’m 21 in less than 30 mins if that’s something on the upside just to mention?! so yeah, i wish the snow would do one so tomorrow is fine, and in the evening i can go back to my second home in huddersfield and chill with the lads. let my life resume already. my psoriasis is the maddest it’s ever been, i’m feeling it, i hurt, i’m becoming a girl. I THINK I MIGHT HAVE A BATH?!!!

peace X

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I am tired but not tired enough to sleep, because I am awful recently and fail to get up, out of my pit in the morning. I need to get back into my researching and planning for up and coming essays, but seeing as though I’m only in 2 HOURS a week it’s pretty hard to stay inspired & motivated. I’m too stressed as of late with illness & recovery, dealing with house issues and TRYING to remain cool as a cucumber around my house mates and near friends. EVERYBODY gets to you at some point, no matter how you’re doing, believe that. you just have to manage your mind yourself and not let people tread on you in your weakest mindset moments. it’s a struggle but i’m trying to think forward and past how i feel right now, towards the weekend, seeing family and hopefully enjoying my 21st birthday in the highest of spirits. whether we’ll have a house party at my gaff in hudds is still yet to be decided, i don’t know what day to plan it for or who to invite, i don’t want to go overboard yet i don’t want to keep it too minimal, then again minimalist ideas never hurt anybody.

peace X

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What should I do for my 21st? Gimme some external opinions, people. House party or what?

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it’s times like these when i just think// say to myself ‘worse things happen at sea’, life goes on mate - nvrsttlfrlss.

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